TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

telllll meeeeeeeeeee mcm mne aq x fkir kt dy....dulu every cuti sem ktorg still cntact,chat but now....emmmmmm sdiyyy sgt dy da brubah x mcm dulu...aq nk dy yg duluuuuu..pliss come backk....i need u... tpi aq tau wlau mcm mne sengsara seksa aq ...x mungkin dy akn jdi mcm dulu..aq tau itu..tpi ya Allah..aq btol2 rse i lost her.. mne dy yg dulu.... actually byk bnde aq nk share dgn dy...aq nk story...tpi aq tkowt..tkowt sgt dy x sudi dgr crite aq...aq tkowt dy da mls da x nk lyan aq..emmm aq chat dy mcm aq chat dgn org laen..aq tyer sepatah dy jwab sepatah...aq aser dy mcm x nk chat dgn aq je dh..hmm myb aq terlalu brgntung dkt dy smpaii aq aser x bole susa aty bile jdi mcm nieh...aq nk kaw yg dulu kdg tgor aq..tyer aq buad ape..tyer kabar aq...n smua lah...aq nk kaw yg dulu...ya Allah pulangkn lah dy yg dulu.... hmmmm i need u...seriously i need u..pliss come back...klau kaw bole x fkirkn aq,,bole abaikan aq,,but not me..i can't..honestly i can't...:( klau bole aq nk tido spnjg hari so that aq x fkir psal kaw...nie asal celik mte,,byk bnde yg mmbuatkn aq igt kt kaw..byk kenangan dulu yg igtkn aq kt kaw...Ya Allah...dulu kt bainun pnah jdi mcm nieh...seriously aq x snggup nk hadapi lgi... Ya Allah aq btol2 sygkn dy,,dy x bole rse ke ape yg aq rse....sthun lbiy...x kn semudah tu kaw nk buang aq...kaw nk lupekn aq...hmmm setiap hubungan aq pasti ade msalah x kire dlm percintaan atau pun persahabatan...mesti aq lost....n one thing for this time aq x nk lost spe2....slagi aq mampu slagi aq bnywe aq akn pertahankn smua perhubungan aq....InsyaAllah...

along sem 4...hmm

Assalamualaikum.. lme x update..but now i'm come back.. byk bnde aq nk share but better share dlm blog nie drpd share dgn mnusia b'coz we cannot trust fully people around us. myb they can betray us,,cheating on us..hati manusia,,rmbut sme hitam,hati laen2..kita x thu ape dyorg fikir right tntg kite. I started when SEM4 begin.. mule2 smua happy..jmpe each other..talk n talk never stop..happy b'coz can see again my roomate b'coz i miss her so much.. but it's juz the beginning.. now i'm start my story on what i feel..n how i'm in pain untk pendam nie smua.. hmm first2 aq dan dy x de pape mslah.we're happy..but ade skli tu dy slah fham dy igt aq cter kt sorg Hamba Allah nie psal smua cite yg dy pnah cter kt aq...wlhal aq x pnah cter lngsung ape2 kt hamba Allah tu..hmm mse tu dy ngah x baek dgn hamba Allah tu...n one night we slowtalk each other n Alhamdulillah we settle it... n aq igt mse dy ngah gduh ngn hmba Allah tu dy suruh aq buad smething if syg dy..n aq buad b'coz i'm really love her.. then mse bjlan dgn pantass.... dy dan hamba Allah nieh dh berbaek..aq happy..alhamdulillah..but since dri situ... mcm2 msalah timbul between aq n dy..hmmm aq tkowt if bnde yg dy suh aq buad dulu kt hamba Allah tu...dy suruh lak Hamba Allah nie buad kt aq....but i'll think posivite she never do that on me right..hmm sejak dy dh berbaek dgn hamba Allah tu aq dh smkin renggang dgn dy..aq dh x tau ape2 psal dy...smua bnde mostly dy dh x cter kt aq but lbih byak bercerita dgn hamba allah tu...seriously skit sgt hati bile fkir blik.hmm btw dlm friendship prasaan benci spatutnyer x ade dlm diri msing2..melainkn sesorg itu x ikhlas or x syg kite...jika sesorg itu ikhlas or trust syg dgn ikhlas..prasaan sebegitu tidak akn ade dlm diri seseorang...aq juz berdoa everyday so tht perasaan yg dy aser kt aq tu hilang n x pnah muncul dlm diri dy dh..but kite as a human juz bole berdoa..n aq x bole pkse dy if prasaan tu still ade kt dy..hmm the most sad thing when we know the person tht we love hate us...hancur remuk hati..hmm but aq pendamm slgi mmpu..n the prob settle.... n onother second prob...is the bigger prob..ktorg sling mnggi suare b'coz aq aser dikhianati...i'm feel i'm foolish...huh dy ckp aq msuk privacy dy..seseorang x akn rse tkowt if dy x buad smething or smbunyikn ape2 yg salah trhadap sahabat dy..n no more secret if dy berlaku jujur trhadap sahabatnyer....aq juz akn bce wechat dy ngn hamba Allah nieh bile mse dy tibe2 badmood...b'coz aq nk tau punce dy badmood..smeade dtg dri aq..or sbb prasaan benci dy kt aq dtg blik...itu je..sbb setiap kli dy badmood juz dkt aq je..dkt org laen oke..itu yg membuatkn aty aq tertye tyer...nk tau punce dy badmood...n one day Allah show me the truth...dy memg bckp psal aq dkt hamba Allah tu..sngnyer ya Allah dy bercerite psal aq..hmm mse tu Allah je yg tau mcmmne prasaan aq,,,ya Allah sumpa kecewa skit sgt aty nieh than smua nieh..aser dikhianati gler..apbila tau org yg pling rapat dgn kite n kite trust dy bole bckp psal kite dkt org laen..it juz like cheating on me.. dulu dy x mcm nieh...sejak baik dgn Hamba Allah nie..sng je dy nk buad aq mcm nieh..myb dy dh x kesah if nk tggl aq sorg2 pown sbb dy dh ade Hamba Allah nie..yg always ade ngn dy n always faham dy.n myb always make her happy..n dy ad rmaii lgi org yg bole dy ngadu dkt luar sne..sementare aq..myb juz blog nieh je yg bole aq crite smuanyer..hmmm but at the end of week..aq ngn dy happy seolah olah nothing happen..but i don't know dy lyan aq mse tu btol2 ikhlas or terpkse sbb hamba Allah nie x de kt situ...aq juz berdoa smua nyer btol2 dy buad sbb ikhlas...n now aq aser ktorg x mcm dulu..sbb aq dh x tau ape2 psal dy...aq hope dy happy dgn life dy skrg...tpi even ape pown jdi aq tetap syd dy..hmm lastly....spnjg cuti sem 4 nie aq akn cube lupekan smua yg dy dh buad dkt aq...n aq mnx maaf if aq ad jgak skitkn aty dy..dont worry friend aq x kn kacau or msuk cmur dh psal privacy kaw...aq x kn sibuk2 nk tau hal kaw dh sbb aq tau myb kaw akn rimas.oke hope sem 5 aq akn lbih focus on my study..n no more prob happen to me... hope u never cheating on me again.. YA ALLAH SEMAIKANLAH KASIH DAN SAYANG KMI DGN HATI YG IKHLAS SESUNGGUHNYA KAMI BERSAHABAT LILLAHI TAALA KERANA ALLAH TAALA.AMIN..

cuty sem2!!!!!!!!! yg membosankan....

i'm back....now nga cty sem,,then 27 hb nieh da naek sem3...huhu result sem 2 truk aq aser,,,abes aq nk jwab ape ngan smua org..hmm cty sem kli nie sgt mmbosankan...always alone n lonely...my fmly smua bz..arghhh bosan...tmbh dgn skit tlinga nyer lgi..hopefully skit nie cpt ilang..aq x nk jmpe pkar...tkowt!!!!!!! actually aq keliru skunk,,mne stu aq nk plih..dua2 jujo n setia org nyer..but aq still x sirius dgn dyorg...ape nk jdi dgn aq, aq pown x tau...now aq nga berfikir mne yg bley wat aq happy itu yg aq pilih...tpi tggu aq blik mlake lah,,sbb skunk nie aq kt perak nk menikmati mse2 cty aq dgn enjoy..even nga mnggung skit skunk nieh...seriosly aq buntu gler...then nsib ade ucukk aq means kwan aq lah,,aq share laa ngan dy.hmmm dy pown tkjot ble aq cter..haha nsib kaw laa cuk dpt kwan yg x tetap pendirian mcm aq nieh...huhu btw thanks lot smlm smpai la pgi 12 hb kaw tman aq kt skype...happy sgt,,,coz aq bosan dok umah nieh...hehe thanks lot kaw da dgr smua msalah aq...syg kaw laa frend...hope our friendship kekal 4ever...

mlm jmaat ary tu 26 julai..sdiy glerr seyh dy wat aq cmtu...dh eppy2 nk bli bju rye ale2 dy badmood!! aq x tau laa sbb ape..hmm so x jdi lah bli bju ayer,,jnis aq x ske shopping ble ade yg badmood or ape2 lah.. aq try nk syum lgi dgn dy mlm tuh,,tpi aq x than then aq ngiss...nsib ade my syg aq ngis laa kt dy..hmm nsib dy pham aq.. thanks biy even jauh pown biy slalu ade..hmm aq nie ank mnje..aq admit laa..smua aq nk msti aq dpt..then ble x dpt smething tu at tht time jgak,,memg aq ngis lah..huk3!!!! then mlm tu aq agk sentap laa ngan dy,, mlm tu aq jdi badmood jgak lpas ape yg jdi..then aq tdo dlu..then ble tsdar je dh tgl sowg dlm blik..dy bleh tgl aq mcm tu je,,dy pnah x fkir ape yg dye wat kt aq tuh...hmmm lau aq aq x buat cmtu aa kt dy..x kn aq nk tgl dy sowg dlm blik...tpi dy ade fkir aq...x de kn,,aq aser dy x pnah fkir psal aq..sdiyy weyh kwan yg kte syg buat mcm nieh..dh laaa nk dkt2 rye2 nieh aq sdiy nk blik kmpung..then dy lak wat aq cmnieh..lgi laa sdiy weyh...dlu aq ykin smua yg dy ckp,buat kt aq,,but now ble dh jdi cmnieh aq x tau dy ikhlas or x buat smua nieh kt aq....sdiy sgt weyh...bru nk happy2,,,dy wat aq cmnie lak.. dh laaaaa pnat laa fkir smua tuh,,skit aty smua ade,,tpi aq cbe buang smua tuh,,,now aq sorg2,,x de spe aq nk ngadu,,nk luahkn ape yg aq rse,,juz blog nie yg sdi tman aq,,,thanks lot blog..kaw byk bjase....hmmmm

dh lme x update teenagers life...now i'm coming back!!lol dh dkt 2 bulan aq kt mlke untuk sem 2 nieh..first2 naek sem eppy gler especially ble dpt tau result sem 1 arytu aq dpt 4fleks..alhamdulillah hope sem laen aq dpt lgi.. hmmm sem2 nie aq dh pndah umah dok skali dak2 farmasi..skali classmate aq...snang ckit aq aser.. stu bilik 2 org..aq stay with eyra..my bff...alhmdulillah lah dpt blik skali,,memg dri sem 1 lgi aq nk dok ngan dy.. best ble dpt dok stu umah ngan kwan yg kte rpat..dpt msak skali,,mkan,tdo,smua bnde skali..but once ble gdoh susah kowt!! hmmm letak tepi laa smua bnde tu..aq dtg cni nk blaja bkan nk fkir bnde2 remeh cmtuh..ckuplah ape yg jdi kt sem 1.. now aq with mylife here are happy..no one can destroy my happier life here..

4 bulan aq kt mlake...first2 dlu memg rse lme gler mse bjlan... but now..ble dh lme,,rse skjb je...n now dh abes sem 1.. awl blan 6,naek sem2 lak...bru 4 bulan mcm2 jdi kt aq... mcm2 msalah brlku kt aq...n the biggest prob is prob in friendship.. aq x tau laa,,asl aq dok je hostel,,,msalah nie msti jdi... i do no lah why it happen... ktorg kwan ber3...no wonder lah memg kwan ber3 nie susah... mcm2 msalah akn berlku..n memg dh berlku dh pown.. aq x tau ape yg aq rse dlm friendship nieh...kdang eppy...kdang stress... hmmm btol lah ape org ckp,,kte bkwan nie jgn trlalu rpt,,ble dh rpt,,,mcm2 msalah akn tmbul.. hmmm x tau lah...sometimes aq fkir aq yg ptot kuar dri kwan ber3 nieh...tpi nta laa... but i ask myself...perlu ke prasaan jelous nie dlm persahabatan???? hmmm memg perlu tpi ble fkir blik dsbbkan prasaan tu lah akn brlkunyer msalah.... so acano tuu...hahaha mcm mne ea kte nk tau ape yg smeone nie ckp or ape yg smua kluar dri mlut dy nie btol??? kdang ape yg dy ckp...x sperti yg dy lakukan...it make me feel not confident with u... pls buat aq fully trust kaw friend!!!! buat mcm ape yg kaw ckp kt aq.... i need u to prove ur words...so that aq bleh trust kaw jdi my beloved friend!!!! btw aq admit laaa aq syg kaw friend....hmmmm okayyy forget about that..now cti sem...aq kt perak..nk menenangkan fkiran yg srabaiii... aq hope naek sem2 nieh,,,x de pape dh blku...n ketenangan yg aq bwak dri perak blik mlake x de spe kcau....juz gi mlake untuk study,,,remember pharmacist to be... ya Allah tlog aq lpe kn smua msalah nie....aq x larat dh nk fkir psal nie je.... oke anis move on....enjoy ur life!!!!

sdiy ++++

ary jmaat lpas 8 march ritu,,,abg n kakak aq blik gather seyh ke gerik huhuhuhuhu...aq je haaa kt melaka....huk3 nk blik jauh.....cuti juz sbtu ahd je... dh laa aq wndu my mom kt grik....wndu umah aq...bilik aq... uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ then ary nie,,ary ahad,10 mac,,,mak sdre yg aq rpat...aq pnggil angah... dy kawen ary nieh...x dpt aq tgk dy kawen....juz wait my sis upload gmbr mjlis kawen tdi je.....huhuhuu x kre blan 4 nie..kakak aq nk tunang..aq nk blik jgak..even sejauh mne pown... aq ttp nk blik...ary bersejarah keluarga aq tuh....gler kaw aq x blik... see the real life in front of my eye.....rugi klau x tgk.... dh laaa tu stu stunyer kakak aq....sentap seyh klau aq x de kn...hahaha btw.....now aq sdiy sgt n wndu gler3 nk blik umah...nk mam nsi lmbik my mom.. huhuhhuhhuhuhu ble aq bleh blik nieh......nk blik.......:(